“The X Factor” U.S. judge Kelly Rowland broke down in tears while she was performing her song “Dirty Laundry” at a concert at The Fillmore in Silver Spring, Md., on May 26, 2013.
Rowland’s emotional meltdown was caught on video by an audience member, who uploaded the video on YouTube. Rowland is seen in the video stopping toward the end of the song, as her voice cracks with emotion. For a few moments, she lowers her head while wiping her eyes. Members of the audience are heard shouting words of encouragement to her and chanting her name. Rowland continued the song after she composed herself.
As previously reported, the “Dirty Laundry” lyrics have Rowland confessing that she has had moments of feeling jealous of her former Destiny’s Child band mate Beyoncé Knowles, who is also known by her one-word stage name Beyoncé. Rowland also opened up in “Dirty Laundry” about being a survivor of past abuse from an ex-boyfriend.
The lines in “Dirty Laundry” that are unmistakably about Beyoncé are: “When my sister was on stage killin’ it like a motherf*cker/ I was enraged, feelin’ it like a motherf*cker/ Bird in a cage/ You would never know what I was dealin’ with/ Went our separate ways but I was happy she was killin’ it/ Bittersweet she was up, I was down/ No lie, I feel good for her but what do I do now? … Post-Survivor, she on fire/ Who wanna hear my bullsh*t.”
In the song, Rowland also talks about an abusive ex-boyfriend (whom she does not name), who drove a wedge between her and Beyoncé.
“Dirty Laundry” was officially released as a Soundcloud audio stream.
In an interview with Billboard, Rowland commented on “Dirty Laundry” (which was produced by The-Dream) and the emotional journey she had in recording the song: “It was very emotional. It took me days to record. I had to get past being so upset and actually sing the song, not sob through it. I always hope that my music can inspire someone, the same way other artists inspire me. Dream said, ‘I want to write you a record so that people will know exactly who you are, underneath it all.'”
Beyoncé has not commented on “Dirty Laundry.” The song is on Rowland’s fourth solo album, “Talk a Good Game,” which is set for release in the U.S. and Canada on June 18, 2013. The album’s first single, “Kisses Down Low” (released on Feb. 1, 2013), peaked at No. 72 on the Billboard Hot 100 chart.
Rowland, 32, has never been married. She has reportedly been dating her manager, Tim Weatherspoon, since 2011. One of her ex-boyfriends, football player Roy Williams, has denied that he ever abused Rowland. Williams tweeted on May 15, 2013: “So Kelly has a new song. Called #DirtyLaundry… & whatever she’s saying in it ppl thinks it’s me. #wow #imnottheonlypersonshedated #wasntme.”
Beyoncé and Rowland essentially grew up together, and they are the only original members of Destiny’s Child who stayed in the group throughout the entire history of Destiny’s Child. During her teen years, Rowland lived with the Knowles family in Houston, since Rowland’s own family life was admittedly chaotic. Rowland had an absentee father who, in 2011, went public with his wish to reunite with her. And her mother, for whatever reason, felt that Rowland was better off living with the Knowles family during those years.
Destiny’s Child amicably disbanded in 2006, but on Feb. 7, 2013, the group reunited for a Super Bowl XLVII halftime show performance in New Orleans. In 2013, Destiny’s Child also had a new reunion single called “Nuclear,” which is on the Destiny’s Child compilation “Love Songs,” an album that has mostly previously released tracks. “Nuclear” was not the hit that many people expected it would be, so it’s unlikely that Destiny’s Child will do another album or tour anytime soon.
However, former Destiny’s Child members Michelle Williams and Beyoncé are featured artists on Rowland’s song “You Changed.” Technically, it’s a Destiny’s Child reunion song, but Rowland is credited as the main artist on “You Changed,” which is on Rowland’s “Talk a Good Game” album.
As previously reported, Rowland’s 2013 North American tour with The-Dream has been derailed by “The X Factor.” On May 22, 2013, Rowland and The-Dream announced in separate statements that several dates on the tour have been cancelled because of Rowland’s work schedule as a judge on “The X Factor” U.S. The cancelled concerts are supposed to be rescheduled on dates to be announced.
On May 20, 2013, “The X Factor” U.S. officially announced that Rowland and Paulina Rubio had replaced Britney Spears and Antonio “L.A.” Reid on the show’s judging panel. Simon Cowell and Demi Lovato are the other two “X Factor” U.S. judges in 2013. The new “X Factor” U.S. judging panel debuted at auditions in Charleston, S.C., on May 21, 2013.
Rowland and The-Dream are co-headlining a 2013 North American tour that began May 24 in Kansas City, Mo., at the Midland by AMC. Almost all of the tour dates did not conflict with “X Factor” U.S. auditions that have been announced so far for May and June 2013, but apparently Rowland felt the workload would be too much, and so several dates on the tour are cancelled. People who bought tickets for the cancelled concerts can get refunds from the place of purchase or can hold on to the tickets and wait until the concerts are rescheduled.